The First Time : a poem, a memory, a feeling.


The first time I saw you
You were wearing black.
You walked straight past me
Not knowing, not caring, not wanting.
You smiled as you got to the door
And just as you opened it
You looked back.

The first time we kissed
Was in your car
Under the flickering street lamp
Not planning, not understanding, not concerned.
And then you dropped me home
And left me alone.

The first time we made love
It lasted the entire night
Gripping. Hungry. And raw.
Not spoken, not comprehended, not defended.
And when the dawn broke
Our other life began.

The first time you said goodbye
I cried my heart out
Till I could feel nothing anymore.
Not realizing, not believing, not speaking.
The senses stood still for a long time
And then it didn’t matter anymore.

The first time I remembered you
Was when it rained today.
Soaking my clothes, touching my skin, caressing my face.
Not with consent. Not with concern. Not with consequence.
Just like, you had taken my heart.
The first time you saw me.





Comments

Anonymous said…
Nice words with full of emotions.
Yash Aggarwal said…
Hi ma'am,

another beautiful writeup.....

It drove me back to those wonderful days....:-)
mukeshrijhwani said…
reminds me of this scene in bluffmaster movie... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nn1g_xihA2A&t=1m0s
Good One ....Simple and B'ful !!! - Abhi
the words resonated with my very being...

eerie echoes, mournful cries and muted sobs of time gone by..

beautiful words!
Thank you Raka. And welcome to my world through this blog. :)
vikas said…
Live telecast of old romantic hindi song " pyar hhua ikrar hua hai". Nicely written. but one thing i want to ask ... why the end is allways like this only?
What do you mean Vikas?
vikas said…
i m asking about the end of poem , it can also have good or happy end. why allways tragedy?
Vikas, For me, tragedy in poems is beautiful. It resonates to the heart of a person.
vikas said…
so that the person will read it again and again and feel the pain.after that they will compare it to their life and be little more sad.
bharat said…
nice lines...!!!!
full of feelings which is hard to explain in words!!!
Thank YOu Bharat. Life is all about understanding and expressing our feelings after all, isn't it? :)

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